i messaged someone back today

it was my last shred of hope in finding true blue
not in this person, but in humanity.

unrelated:
how will i ever know when something is right?
when i almost have my heart set on something,
i'm reminded of some possibility or another
and it makes me not want to decide on anything at all.

what i want most is something that means so much,
is so transparently pure and right,
that no other possibility could ever compare.

i'm doomed to search forever
for the answers
to questions
which have none.